that's all for now

that last post was dramatic. it's not that i was being overly dramatic either. i feel like i was actually being underly dramatic given the situation. maybe one day i'll tell what made me be dramatic, but it's kind of hard to post...like writing down what is going on makes it even more real.

with that i'm going to try to turn this around.

work has been busier than ever! i've gotten crazy amounts of overtime the last couple of days. it's a good thing that craig's in california this week because i feel like i've barely been home. i love being busy, but it sure makes me tired.

random thing for the day: i found myself on an elevator with some nfl players today...well known nfl players. they are HUGE. i mean HUGE HUGE. the ones that were in the elevator with me were so tall and so HUGE. i know that they have to be that way because they beat on other HUGE guys for a living. i was more shocked by that than who they were. perhaps that's because i don't like the team that these particular players play for.

on another random and exciting note! i'm going to the world's oldest dr. pepper museum with some friends on saturday and am too excited. i love dr pepper and am excited for the roadtrip out there and the day that goes along with it.

love.

*disclaimer* this post is NOT about craig

these last few days have been insane. they haven't seemed real; like they're out of a movie.

i don't understand. i'm so hurt. i'm so angry. i'm so numb. i'm so frustrated. i'm so worried.

a sweet friend put ecclesiastes 3 in front of me. it's something that i am trying to hold on to. it's hard.

am i ever going to accept this? will there be reconciliation? will anyone come out of this alright?

so many questions, and not many answers.

thankful

i wrestled with a few topics for this next post and a 'thankful' post is what i landed on...because there's been so much to be thankful for lately.

~a great new job
~a 75% pay raise
~a new truck
~a good home for the surf ninja
~craig growing into such a man of God
~being broken and humbled
~friends in california
~new friends in texas
~our cats
~having a garden tub...bubble baths are so great
~emails and letters from friends
~netflix (life gets a little lonely when you have the opposite schedule of your spouse)
~my relationship with my brother and sister
~tye-dye
~dr. pepper

now, i know that some of those may seem superficial, but hey, i can be thankful for the little things in life right?

love.